Assalammualaikum dearself. How's the weather ? Is it sunny is it blergh. Most important it's raining season mate. Alhamdulillah for everything is better rite ?
I've been off the track in updating my blog all this while. Sorry for the sudden unconsistent and bloody hell comeback. I am good in handling my anxiety disease for this past duration of time, perhaps. It doesnt attack me merely too obvious since I'm in my 3rd semester of study. Thanks to my 'presidential-like-lifestyle'. Alhamdulillah lord 😌
But this moment, this seconds I'm feeling really down that I can live under the sea really well 😒. I donno if this a damn sudden anxiety attack or just a merely unemployed fat girl-syndrome.
I've been thinking and warned myself over and over again.
"It's all about rezqi u're asking for, begging for. Late or now, it will eventually come Fiqah."
That's how I consoled myself over this week. How anxious I am O lord hearing seeing looking at my friends being really prospers with all those job interviews. And someone sometwo somethree(?) got a big catch after the last paper we had last 2 weeks 😌. Alhamdullilah for a great murah rezeki they had.
And what had I done ? Merungut everyday. Acting like the world had met its end. Mengadu everyday dekat mak saying "asal la tak dpt kerja lagi ni mak ?" Making sad and depressed face sebab taknak being accused as "menghabihkan bogheh (beras)" person.
I never know that cursed damn saying
"Ingat senang ke nak carik kerja lepas Diploma ni"is working really well screwing people's life
(Maybe only my life).
I've been living in a negative aura over this past week till I forget how positive's life looks like ☺. Of course I'm in a hot cup seeking for a job. But I need to enjoy that sexy warm ride aint I ? ☕💕 Play over the flow. At least I will not be regret once I start my working life on how I tak cukup lepas Diploma ke apa ke en ? (Sedapkan hati)
Yes dearself. Berapa kali dah I remind you untuk ingat. Rezeki orang lain lain jurus turunnya. Allah is a great planner. Allah asks you to wait face the hardships bukan sebab Allah benci. Tapi sebab Allah sayang. Allah holds your du'a for you to repent any of your action. Correct everything. Good things will come.
Yes. Allah asks you to wait. But be caution for the better reward afterward.
Alter your intention. Pray. Pray. Pray and be wise. Allah knows what is the best for you 😊
Love yourself,
TeruTeru 💕
